Q & A

Yesterday, after the usual Saturday ministering and feeding activities (including a Mass by Father Steve whose Tagalog is getting less-Aussie-accented everyday), Kuya Joe Dean conducted our bi-monthly missionary formation session. Even before entering into worship, he presented us with a question that unsettled me a little bit: he asked us to ask God if indeed our individual lives were meant to be spent serving Him in this radical way, in continuing His work here on earth as missionaries in His name. And he asked us to remember our call, and to seek confirmation from the Lord if we were to continue pursuing it in this manner or to go on to other endeavors. Goodness gracious, what if the Lord were calling me back to the legal profession or to whatever else I'd left behind? I set all these concerns before Him in prayer and in worship, and waited for His reply...

...and no sooner than I'd worriedly presented the question to Him (for, indeed, He brought me to this place and I've had no inclination to go back to the old way of life or be removed right now from what I am doing), His response quickly came through one of "our songs." Kuya suddenly began singing it during worship - and he's never used this song in all the times I've been praying with him - and I take it to be an assurance that right now, I am where God wants me to be, doing what He leads me to do. And that my life on this earth will be devoted to Him and doing His work...no turning back from this point on.

I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will tend the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them,
My hand will save
Finest bread I will provide,
Till their hearts be satisfied.
I will give My life to them,
Whom shall I send?

Here I am Lord, is it I Lord?
I have heard You calling in the night.
I will go Lord, if You lead me.
I will hold Your people in my heart.

Amen. :-)